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whither malaysia

yeah..whither malaysia?? amid all this political turmoil, Whither Malaysia?....im wif Dr. M...enuf said..

Posted by Dr. Mahathir Mohamad at August 8, 2008 11:00 AM |

1. I am very touched by the response to my article "The Country We Love" (July 27, 2008). We may have our differences, we may be of different races but it seems that we all love this country.

2. I have been abroad hundreds of times but I never fail to look forward to returning home. And as I step off the plane I would feel that sense of belonging that almost move me to tears. I am quite sure that every Malaysian feels this way upon returning to this, our very own homeland.

3. As Malaysia we are not an old country for we came into being only slightly more than 50 years ago. But it had been a very eventful half a century.


4. No one gave us much of a chance when in 1957 we lowered the Union Jack and flew the Jalur Gemilang. We were of many races, cultures and religions, divided again by our economic functions, by extreme disparities in material wealth.

5. But our wise founding fathers, our Tunku Abdul Rahman, our Tan Cheng Lock and our Tun Sambanthan worked out a unique form of racial cooperation that staved off any violent confrontation between the races.

6. That cooperation, embodied in the coalition of racial parties and the Alliance/National Front Governments enabled the country to remain peaceful, bar one or two hiccups for 50 years.

7. Those were glorious years. The country grew and prospered. It became the model of the development of a developing country, a model of racial cooperation. It became known throughout the world where once no one could evenpronounce its name. It was the envy of other developing countries.

8. Malaysians abroad felt proud because the moment they identified themselves as Malaysians, immediately people talked of F1 in Sepang and the twin towers.

9. There seemed to be nothing to stop us from achieving our goal of becoming a developed country by 2020.

10. Now all these dreams seem to have faded away. We are involved in political wrangling of all kinds, our leaders seem to be uncertain about what to do, our foreign policy is in disarray etc etc.

11. We have lost our direction. And we get no guidance.

12. We can withdraw into ourselves and merely wish our problems would go away or would solve themselves.

13. But that is wishful thinking. They will not solve themselves, they will not go away. If at all they will become worse, become much more difficult to resolve, as our people become more deeply divided.

14. The organisations created by our founding leaders which we were once confident could handle every problem have now deteriorated. Everything is about what is in it for me. Even the ordinary members of once respected political parties want something for themselves. Jobs, posts, titles, contracts and filthy lucre are the only things which matter.

15. Sacrifice? What sacrifice?

16. Who cares to sacrifice whatever. For most of the people we put our trust in to steer this beloved country to greater heights, the only sacrifice is to give up the Mercedes Benz for Proton Perdana, and that too very reluctantly.

17. I wasn't the best of leaders when I was in the hot seat.

18. But I did try my best. If my best is not good enough I am sorry.

19. But Dato Onn Jaafar, Tunku Abdul Rahman, Tun Abdul Razak, Tun Hussein Onn, Tun Tan Siew Sin, Tun V.T. Sambanthan cannot be faulted in terms of the sacrifices they made, their contributions to building racial harmony, peace and stability for their country.

20. Could it be that we forgot to teach this generation of leaders about the sacrifices made by our founding fathers. 21. Could it be that we cannot handle wealth as we did poverty?

22. Could it be that our leaders lack honour and the sense to accept responsibility and to retire gracefully?

23. Some simply cannot accept the realities, the role they had played in the destruction of a near perfect system which had done so much for our country.

24. Yes we should "Cry the Beloved Country" as Alan Payton said of his South Africa of the Apartheid past.

25. But crying would take us nowhere.

26. It is time the silent majority stop being silent.

27. It is time to speak up and be counted.

28. If we love our country we must not allow crooks and charlatans to rape and steal it from us.

29. It is ours, this country of many races and religions.

30. We must stand together, we the concerned Malaysians, and defend our heritage.

                            

u r indeed funny bitch

i got to know from my frens that the bitch is still viewing my frenster up till now..so lame!! i dun give a shit bout it..but the info jus came to me. i remember the 1st time we had a conversation she told me that "she saw me in frenster". i wonder why she did that. cos i dun even care to look for her in frenster back then. guess im that famous and intimidating ait?? haha.. till now i dun give a damn to look at her frenster. so its proven that she is indeed A STALKER!! well.. if she is happy with her so-called the most gentleman n sincere guy in the world. why must she be intimidated by my frenster??? i dun wanna know what is in her frenster. cos its so not relevant to me nmore..plus i dun care n i dun give a damn bout it!! but from the juicy story that i heard..i can make a conclusion that she is not happy with her life. thats y she has to copy someone else's..who disturbs whose life now?? u tell me.. so funny.. im obviously happy with my life now.. i cudnt ask for more.. n i dun have to fake it :) n yeah... i remember once she told me that the asshole wanted to know how her hair looks like... guess its not a secret nmore cos it has been made freely available to the general public :) way to go girl with veil!! if your intention is to annoy me.. jus wanna let u know that it is not working!! thats the reason y i put up this blog cos i know u will read it :) perhaps u shud think bout how ur ex feels by now.. i feel sorry for him. u dun even try to pretend like u r recovering from ur previous rships.. so heartless.. thats y u r proud to exhibit everythg in ur frenster.. well..this will be my last blog bout the asshole n cheap woman. they r not in my dictionary nmore. i am happy now!! im glad ive found my self again!! thanx to u!! hehe

Thank you God

After what happened yesterday..i just have to post this again. I am a human….so pls treat me like one. Its not about who wants what.Its about how u treat someone..All this time…after what they have done to me.I still have the ‘was it my fault’ thinking...But thank God..after yesterday.I realized that it was not me..it was always them. I am way….much stronger now :) People…u can check my friendster anytime u want and pls dont forget to make a duly report k…that someone wont believe in me.So u dont have to worry now.It was never about me..it was always about u actually.U jus dun realize it.Hope u r happy as I am now..i am so damn relief n happy now.Thanx to u :) Like u said..Apa Lagi??!! Huhu..nways…its my blog.who r u to say anythg?? ‘sape makan cili die rase pedas la kan’..k im starting to sound like minah kilang.. ;p

I learnt a very valuable lesson today..never trust people n let them enter your life easily.I gave that someone my trust n everything for 2 years til I ignored the person who really DO CARE bout me!! When i met him..i forgot the real me and i devoted my life to him. He was playing with my heart for 2yrs. He is damn good!!! Never say ‘that it is ol about me’..i didnt start this by myself. Remember that..I was trying my best to work things out but what I didnt realize was that he humiliated me in front of his friends n family since early this yr or maybe for the entire past 2yrs. I dont know... He used me to get the attention of other girls. Yeah…I should worry about my status but u can do whatever u want rite?? :) All this while I kept blaming my friends who looked at him -vely. I even praised him in front of everyone.. I should have listened to everyone including my boss!! I should have listened to my friends when they told me that they bumped into him went out with different girls few times!! I was too blind to see it!! Why???!!! He is very good with playing words! He even played my family! Thats the thing that I really cudnt accept. How someone could has the heart to betray my parents trust!! After all that Ive gone tru for him..this is how he treated me n he has the guts to blame it on me!! He played me from early this year with that lady. He was having some difficulties before. I tried my best to help him. He used the support i gave him to bring that person out for movies n meals. Once he told me that he almost ran out of petrol n he wanted to bring his sisters out to scout for a new house to rent. N being me as usual..i blieve in him. Guess what..the lady proudly told me that yes he went out with his sisters to survey for new house but..he fetched her 1st at home n then went out for a date afterward. Its not about money..its about how one person can be very convincing n plastic at the same time. I helped him sincerely bcos of my feelings for him. But he betrayed it big time. Its about my pride n dignity.. What do u feel when u helped someone u trusted but the person use it to have fun with someone else?? N not forgetting..he used the same technique to all his victims..such as taking pictures of different pose n then paste it on powerpoint n named it 'her many faces..or watsoeva'...bring the victim to his meeting room to watch sunset n then u know what happened next la kan...i leave it to your own discretion :)... God still loves me…He answered my prayers. Now I see everything clearly. Eventho I only found the truth after 2 years. Its not too late.. one day he’ll get the reward from the Almighty. What comes around goes around :)

To my fiancé fikhree…from the bottom of my heart..I beg for your forgiveness. I should have listened to you. No matter how bad I hurt u..You never give up..u stood up like a real man n fought for me. You are a miracle. In the past 2yrs...it was so hard for me to utter the words to u..Ada hikmah behind it...Im ready to start a new life n much more interesting life with u.I was stupid.I was blind.I was weak.I was cheated..just name it.Im not ashame to say ol that.cos its true..but I cant imagine anyone in this world could be as patient n caring as u r. U r d one n only.u were always the one.i was blinded by fake promises..

To my family… I apologize for bringing this person into our family and then betrayed your trust! I should have listened to my sis n bro..they were rite!!!

To my friends and colleagues… I love u guys so much!! Tq for standing by my side 24-7!!

To my bosses..I will work harder from now on and never let this someone to distract my attention anymore.

To this someones family and friends..i need to clear my name. I am not whatever he told you! All I can say is..no one knows.U only hear from his side.I never got the chance to say anything.So its up to u to judge..No one knew for God knows how long i cried everynite for him. for what?? He made me believe that this happened bcos of me!! He played with my head n feelings! All u can see is that i am the bitch rite? Yeah..he is nice..but u just dont know the dark side of him.No one knows :) y shoud I just keep quiet n let them badmouth about me..after ol.no one would believe in me rite? Cos im not wearing any veil ;)

To everyone..never use the excuse that you are allow to become a womanizer/playboy because u need all the attention from women cos u have lost your beloved mom. Thats a very classic and lame excuse!! One day it will eat u back…”Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jua’..

To the lady who is with or not with him now…whatever..I wish u all the best. You r also a very gud actress. You played me real well. U called me 1st..giving ur fake motivation making me believe that u r sincere. The funny part was..i trusted u! When u proposed to meet up.. again i tot u were sincere! But when i tink of it again...listening to all ur stories bout wat uve done with him behind my back. It was just cruel..no woman in this world wud tell ol those stories to someone who has gone tru so much wt the same guy. Unless u purposedly wanted to make her jealous n to gave her more heartache. Her last words to me "Perempuan bodoh je balik to a guy like him..I wont..So you should do the same" but when we confronted him..suddenly she told tis to the guy..'if u nak move on..i can support u..but mane boleh sekali 2 org'????? shit!!! ...u played me!!! so its proven that u r one now..im referring to her last words to me. Way to go lady!! No wonder someone told me that 'buku bertemu dengan ruas'..cos you guys r made for each other. No one would believe in me.So I just leave it to God :) I neva tot that evil women like u exist in real life... Its proven that girls with veils can be much much more evil than girls without one. U played ur own kind. U r so good at this rite?? U asked him once what does he wants in life..u should ask that to yourself lady. What do u want in life?? Pretending to be a goodie2 2 shoes for how long??? No wonder its easy for u to let go of ur ex-fiance for someone new n played your new bf..bcos its just u!! I am so glad that I am not u even I am weak…u can say whatever u want.it wont work anymore.go n continue badmouthing about me to him.cos u know that u feel insecure or wateva..i jus dun care anymore..cos Im just not u!!!

To the girls that I have heard your names before..to name a few..I***ni, B***i, S****h, F**a..etc. You know who you r. I dont know you guys n im not sure wheter he played u or not. Am sorry if i looked at u guys -vely before..cos I dont know the true story.everytime I asked him..he will say ‘shes only another girlfriend of mine’ :) n he told me that he was pissed off with that girl cos she hooked him up with a ‘pondan’ etc.n I believed in him.but now im not sure whether whateva he told me before bout ol those girls were true or not.looks like its not.he played me..if only i knew the truth earlier.i wouldnt have wasted my life for 2 years!!

To this someone…tq for everything. I have to admit that u helped me a lot before but that doesnt allow you to treat me like shit/animal n betrayed my trust!! Ive told you..when you said 'org buat mulut pasal sy cos sy kerja bagus..ade rupa n single…perempuan nyusahkan hidup aku..aku nak jadi gay lepas ni..nak balik kuching jaga bapak aku..n jangan provoke saya that I will go to her cos i wont..cos sy dah benci perempuan!'.. I so... dun believe u..cos I know you cant live without one. Admit it! U dont know how u turn my life upside down especially within tis past 4mnths. They only hear from your side. What about my side?? I know u r badmouthing bout me to the lady n your family n God knows who else. When i called u at nite..u told her that i disturbed u. When u knew that i was coming to fetch u at home..u sent her sms asking for her help to rescue u as if i was stalking u!!!! what the fuck was that??? Thats a very stupid way to get a lady as cheap as her!!!! If thats the way u treat a person that has gone trough so much with u.Then u dont deserve me. No one knows what I went tru for u. It was never about me..it was ol about u from the moment I met u. Its about u having a gud job n needing someone to be by your side. N u made me learn to l**e u by giving ol your fake promises. Everytime I wana backoff..u came back wt more n more promises. Jus see what happened in the end..so please! It was never about me..It was ol about what u want n when u got it n then u found a new one..u just go for it n dump the old one like a trash. No one knows…I cant imagine what would happen to me if I end up with u..n yeah..my father is a retiree..no wonder u ditch me for someone who has more power rite?? n tq for givin back wat u owed me. Again..like u said..'its not about harta...' its about my pride. U used me when u wanted to go out with her. Anyone would feel the same..i am just a human.When my mom called u..u have the cheek to tell her that u had a girlfriend before me n u left her for me!!! wat the fuck was that??!!! If u wana ditch me..there are so many other ways to do it..not like this. Criusly..no one knows. Thats ol I can afford to say..whatever it is.Tq for everything…n I mean it!

I thank you God..for showing me the right path. Especially after what had happened yesterday. He yelled at me infront of his house like im an animal!!! I am just a girl ok n i was lost. Do i deserve tht kind of treatment???? N when I saw his sister gave me a one good solid sharp glanced yesterday like I am a beggar or something..It really really opened up my eyes…y do I have to go tru ol this for this bastard??? Obviously no one would believe in me.so just let it go..go to hell with them.i am so so much better than this.they r way out of my league.I was so weak!!! I just let them bullied me..but no more. I am way much much stronger now :) u just dont know what u have turned me into…I am so thankful that I have everyones support. I admit that i was not a good person myself for these past 2 yrs.i was weak..n I was stupid to see the truth.but i am so.. not him n the lady!! i am not perfect..but at least im trying my best..saya bersyukur atas apa yang ada. Very loving and supporting family..extremely understanding and gorgeous fiance..incredible friends..good job...and im moving on. Thank you God..Tq for teaching me this lesson..never trust people easily even how nice and sincere they can be.. Alhamudillah..

Up to u to judge me..this is how I feel after 2yrs…i just have to say it out loud. i cant keep it to myself nmore.no one knows…im not perfect. its not ol about me..it was never about me… :)

hold on to the nights-richard marx

Just when I believed I couldn't ever want for more.
This ever changing world pushes me through another door.
I saw you smile
And my mind could not erase the beauty of your face
Just for a while,
Won't you let me shelter you.

Hold on to the night
Hold on to the memory
I wish that I could give you something more,
That I could be yours

How do we explain
something that took us by surprise
Promises in vain
Love that is real, but in disguise
What happens now
Do we break another rule, let our lovers play the fool?
I don't know how to stop feeling this way

Hold on to the night
Hold on the memory
If only I could give you more...

Well, I think that I've been true to everybody else but me
And the way I feel about you makes my heart long to be free
Every time I look into your eyes I'm helplessly aware
That the someone I've been searching for is right there

Hold on to the night
Hold on to the memory
I wish that I could give you more....
Hold on to the night

story of my life...

yeah...wateva

dewan rakyat

its 7.30pm..n im still here at dewan rakyat.so unfortunate..today is d last day for 2006's session. looks like ill stuck ere til midnite. y it must b me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me no IT savvy

puluh kali aku try btulkan blog missions impossible tu. stil jadi camtu gak. sgt la tak IT savvy aku nih. hmmm.... so lagi 1 thing to add in my 2007 resolution is to learn more bout IT so xyah asik nyusahkan org bile nak wat formatting. huhu...

mission impossible

My work is getting heavier n heavier each day. I cant complaint much.. but I need to release it somewhere. ASEM process is getting complicated. There are so many things to do. And as my fav boss alwiz says…. “as the desk officer for ASEM, it is your duty to look into this matter and discuss it with me!” like hell i care!!! Ill be super duper bz till feb nx yr. Now im immersed wt the preparation for the nx meeting in

Brunei

on 20-21. ill be attending the meeting wt my tksu. N jus d 2 of us..aggggghhhhhhhhhhhh no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! pls pray for me that ill come back in 1 piece ;p afta the meeting in

Brunei

.. ill go through another transition that will sort of change my life as a single lady. Dun worry.. ill tell u more on this soon.hahaha ;) there wil be another meeting in berlin in late jan nx yr. hv to start wt the preparation straight away afta I got back from Brunei. Fyi..most of the ASEM countries hv an ASEM division on its own. But in my case..i hv to do ASEM by myself wt minimal supervision by my immediate boss. Thank god I hv a very understanding big boss whom I think is doing more work than my immediate boss. im so confused.. who is d big boss here??? Azizul said..”
there are other ways to release stress or rather I need to learn to mange stress. For him.. he accepts there will always be challenges in work. Some are ridiculous and mind blowing. If he cant change them..then jus take em one at a time. Kalau stress pun bukan boleh dapat duit. Not worth dying for the company”.. hes so true. Wish i hv d same thinking as him. It proves dat I need to learn to manage my stress. D 1st ill do is to learn to luv myself by not consuming anything dat is hazardous. 2nd is to learn to luv my job even if it sucks to d max. 3rd.. is to spend more time at home even wen I hv tonnes of things to do.ill bring it back n finished it at home.

Ill

rather spend more time at home than ofis. 4th is to enjoy myself!!!! Wt my luv ones ofcos. and my last aim is to learn implementing the 90-10 principle. These are few of my missions impossible for the coming 2007. huh… im so done. Huhu… zurina.. signing off ;)

Discover the 90/10 Principle by Stephen Covey

ive learnt a very valuable lesson from this article. esp on the part where people luv to say negative things bout u. i used to get snapped ezly bout dis. but now i realised that people only talk negative things bout others bcos they dont hv the self confidence in them. they did that obviously to make themselves feel good. its a free country...let them say wateva they want to. wat matters in the end is how the people closed to u think bout u. got this article from shahrul. so read up.. :)

It will change your life (at least the way you react to situations).

What is this principle? 10% of life is made up of what happens to you. 90% of life is decided by how you react.

What does this mean? We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us.

We cannot stop the car from breaking down. The plane will be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic.

We have no control over this 10%. The other 90% is different. You determine the other 90%.

How? ……….By your reaction.

You cannot control a red light. but you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react.

Let's use an example.

You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just happened.

What happens next will be determined by how you react.

You curse.

You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over. She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus.

Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit.

After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 traffic fine away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started terrible. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home.

When you arrive home, you find small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter.

Why? …. Because of how you reacted in the morning.

Why did you have a bad day?

A) Did the coffee cause it?

B) Did your daughter cause it?

C) Did the policeman cause it?

D) Did you cause it?

The answer is "D".

You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day.

Here is what could have and should have happened.

Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say, "Its ok honey, you just need to be more careful next time". Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and waves. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff. Your boss comments on how good the day you are having.

Notice the difference?

Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different.

Why?

Because of how you REACTED.

You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other 90% was determined by your reaction.

Here are some ways to apply the 90/10 principle. If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you!

React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed out etc.

How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your temper? Pound on the steering wheel? A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off) Do you curse? Does your blood pressure skyrocket? Do you try and bump them?

WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at work? Why let the cars ruin your drive?

Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.

You are told you lost your job.

Why lose sleep and get irritated? It will work out. Use your worrying energy and time into finding another job.

The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take outpour frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over what is going on.

Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger. Why get stressed out? It will just make things worse.

Now you know the 90-10 principle. Apply it and you will be amazed at the results. You will lose nothing if you try it. The 90-10 principle is incredible. Very few know and apply this principle.

The result?

Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress, trials, problems and heartache. We all must understand and apply the 90/10 principle.

It CAN change your life!!!

Enjoy….

everbody hurts

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go, (hold on)
when you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.

Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
when you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. (repeat & fade)
(Everybody hurts. You are not alone.)

R.E.M